This year after a travel I did for improving at a sport I do, I got to the realization that I don't need to do this things I like in order to please others, I just need to do this things cuz I enjoy it, that helped me recover my confidence and I started carring for myself again.
With my confidence back I did something I was too embarassed to do and that was hearing all of my songs. so with my mom we started hearing from the oldest one to the newest and... I actually enjoy it, some of them were very cool and unique and bringed me lots of good memories.
The point of this It's that I felt that I got blinded by my own idea of success, I was so desperate to get the aproval from others that I was scared of doing music the way I like it. I like to experiment, learn new things and trying different genres.
This time I'm back because of myself also... no more streaming services I want my music to help others in their projects not to get them in trouble with copyright and meaningless coorporate stuff.